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Being consecrated…..

shafeekh — Fri, 02 Jul 2010 14:34:21 +0000

life is stretching again ,am here in this site for last 30 days . After crashed in Dubai after ma beloved vacation, reached back in this site .Being in a project site is fun , but a long stay in a remote site …say truely nope!and f u r tie up wid a new kind f relation…:(

it s a different and odd feeling to be engaged with something which you never think , i could feel the change happened. Cannot be put am in a ‘revolutionary road’ , but still some kind of minor modification in the ‘AS BUILT’ drawing f lyf. Everyone have the time , it s my turn.
After reaching this site i felt some difference, its lfeeling of i reach back to my adolocent period.Attimes i think am in a trance ?at work i could not find a major change .
Second Phase
Today after 77 days days ,done an review. It was not like usual review, how far we moved.How this changed me in last 77 days .. it was not bad as i thought. The fear i had in my mind was about unavoidable obligations in a relation .Some poeple can stamp it as Responsibilities.but for me if we categorised this obligations in the lable of Responsibility .Am helpless to put me myself in a category of Irresponsible lads . But somehow i could manage the tempo of this relation , It was not tough as i thot. Now i could understand that the responsiblitioes or obligation give a good reason to live.May be this will be the sweetness of a relation.

Institution of life

shafeekh — Wed, 12 May 2010 17:46:50 +0000

The institution of life ….although it is a nice concept , tough to absorb and digest. The stupidity of this short life is starting since when we can stand up, we are starting to walk away from the womb . Searching for destiny to find out new perspective of life. And am always think about falling days, most of the days are not worth for a revising but some days are fallen which is fruitful, which is worthy .The worthiness of this good day can forget the remaining bad days. Then i called these applaudable days as the Institution days of life.
Everyday in the lnstitution of life s feeding some crispy thoughts. Everyday it reveal new lessons of the stupidity of life . The fruitfulness of winning and losing is justifying . The era of the competition perish present life and increase your B.P . we can describe this in a pattern of the institution of life ??.We will get any relevance to this highly competitive world in a aspect of a true life ?
To find out the fruitfulness and meaning of the institution of life , I just logged and searched.
I could find many spiritual site where they marketing the spirituality in a ‘ready to use’ model, even with your credit card you can buy some amount of spirituality !!!!. The new era of the spirituality and its childishness really dissappointed me . And most of the sites are a combinations of do and don’ts . Ultimately i could identify that Here in the institution of life there is no big role for the spirituality. Do and Donts will make u better ?
I dont think so . Because it is also in the perspective of each individual. But some sounds good and made me some kind of happiness
Succesful energetinc professionals and those who believe in change the world can put this stuff as a stupid scrap of a lazzy loser guy

1. Dont Insist for things , If a state or object which you are trying is not available go for the next option after your maximum. Everything in world have an alternative. Nature is following the art of alternatives Determination can bring you allthing in to this small beautiful life , but it will comsume alot of precious valuable time of this short stupid life.Whatever you get , In the end of day it is very tough to be happy.So cheer with present

2. Love and hate is facing each other , both can get to extreme levels in two directions . Love for free is not so easy, it is not impossible too. So try to love world eventhough world is hating you . You are not alone in this crowded room. Because many people think that world is hating him.

3.Dont show your temperness for some small goals , neglect things . Go out and see some good world if you feel irritation or suffocation . Have a sip of some black tea and watching a sunset makes you better than some statistical marketing analysis
4. Check every act in life make you happy, am happier than the last moment ? And somebody complelling to do things? someone is controlling my life ? and it is not a good idea to control your life some stupid blogger !!

5. responsiblity towards the humanity is a good idea, but if you are not happy with that, simply drop it . No body have right to pressurise you to push you to do some good deeds. But learn something new from the life.And give some thing to world ,The world is not so bad !!
6. If a person did a crime to you ,please don’t hate whole people , country and community of culprit . Hating poeple need alot of energy and it will consume energy to pressurize your blood weins.
7.Commercialsing of life is not a good idea , if you enjoying business O.K , But i ll again ask you ‘u really njoying sitting in a cubicle rather than a beach.

Right now am getting bored with blogging will come later if i have time .

Diary

shafeekh — Sat, 10 Apr 2010 16:09:49 +0000

The diary pages got some kind of friction and rust, everyday think about something to scrap
But the situation do not permits , the job s not hectict but schedule is horrible .
The job is scrawling like anything , nothing is attractive other than bank status in the end of month
And it is a test field or la earning pit . Ultimately the everyday in my life am learning something new . So it make some difference and am happy about the new world . But feel that coming days are faded and i feel am alone in the crowded room ,all in office got some kind of edge , but am roaming around like a vagabond!!!!.

Diary

shafeekh — Sun, 21 Mar 2010 22:33:11 +0000

There is a common rule about things & feelings . It is about saturation level . All things will reach a Saturation level , level in which feel of ‘enough is enough’ . Although Saturated finacial state is a mirage, it will never come . And human being as in many case here also made some exceptional rules , as in the law book the loopholes.
Yesterday watched movie up in the air , I got a cliche in that ‘Backpack of life’. The common rule of any travel or voyage ‘lesser lugggage make you more comfortable’ . And i just watching ths movie i tweeted about self made isolation (according to me once it was the ultimate freedom). After watching this movie i could realise that “Freedome is the possibility of isolation ” .Isolating from individuals , relations and state. but most of us this Isolation is a creepy idea although it offers some kind of freedome. We have to admit the good part of isolation. All want to stay at home ultimately
Today my boss called me in the evening, as a way to proffessionalism , i have to do some kind of sacrificing. I was literally ill . My brain is already drained.
2marrow am moving to site another step to isolate myself from the world . for next 28 days i will be out of world . My world will be only my systems my program and my people.
the loneliness make you think about your failures, and it leads to a state where myself sketch me as a confused.
Am thinking about reading Marques again . Have to start the solitude once again .

Resolutions for life

shafeekh — Thu, 07 Jan 2010 23:00:26 +0000

As ususla this year i did not make new resolutions and promises , why should i ?
All world is behind the resolutions , since from the last site , am idle in home and planning a small holiday for my sisters engagement . . It is happy to act like a responsible brother , am i responsible to anything . Am not sure as i dont have any responsible towards myself , i cannot find any reason to think tha am a responsible guy
Statistics Table (Resposibility Chart )
Resposnsibility towards Job :Average , sometime Poor
Responsibility towards commitments :Average
Responsibility Personla Hyginec : POOR

This three are main criterias , all in these am behind the race , so anymore chances and i can relax myself as i labelled as a irresponsible ignorant stupid . Today toke a break from work and was in home for all day , and done some job for Offers , small job. But i liked that work , it is new so challenging . Every new things are making some challenges and i like that challenges . The new learning experiences , it feel me better.
For this new year i made some wishes like complete IELTS and opening of file and other stuffs and be a good expert in whatever am doing , try to be excellent and perfect . No more big mistakes and doubtful acts and try to be in mainstream not behind the curtains and part in the making of world , It is some wishes as everyone could make in the evening of a year , I can break the wishes as it is not a promises ,. IELTS am trying for last afew months , but still i did not a good institute start my studies and am nit sure that when i can start the real western accent talking. The accent plays an important role in the proffessionl life. How you can express your ideas it is important , how much you can transfer information .The basic question what is your Baud Rate

waiting for pink slip !!!!

shafeekh — Sun, 03 Jan 2010 20:52:14 +0000

Back n action , reached last night in home from Fahud , the job was a disaster as the things was not in under control , shutdown went smoothly , faced many scenarios , could manage to start the station .. but it was late . Is it my mistake , i asked many times this question , any delay due to me . I really dont know , truth is that i was not aware of the mails that arrived in my inbox ,my mistake ..
OPC went to idle , is it my mistake , deleetion of some buscom tags as well we have to generate Downloadable code ( i missed this lesson ) , my mistake ? May be …. anyway i got a good support from the office (both Oman and M.E) , but things going in a wrong way ….. am waiting fr some bad news ?
it sounds like that , may be No more sites ! And may be my pink slips are ready on Big b s desk ..lets see !!
The pink slips are not a full stop and life is stretching beyond pink slips, altough i faced the toughest time with a cheer, but this a game with my career , may be will have a happy ending ( i hope ) , hope can make difference …Money Vs Career, this game started once i completed my career in 2006 , 3 years are over and am still in the cloud and dont have the rays of hope ?
i made a searching in the net about how to handle with a pink slip ?
how should be the psychilogical effect of a Pink slip and how we can make ready with the Pink slip and make things in a smooth way , but i could not get a clear solutions , sometimes google is not reliable ????
And i googled the ” the layoffs” i got alot i

Porn,Prestige and Spirituality !!!!

shafeekh — Fri, 18 Dec 2009 12:04:23 +0000

Another friday , But it was utterly boring . Last night , i just want to forget myself . When am getting in to the flat , time was 2300 ,Worked with some video conferance stuffs, arranged everything like opening ports ,how to deactivate firewall , how we make system in front of a firewall ,…Anyway we got access to German Server ,Rest will do on monday . Network is small , but complications give a Size .
During this job i put some kind of wall post on facebook regarding this stuff , and i just blacked out .No Clue how i drafted !!!
Later i deleted stuffs … Sometime it is advisable to use some erase tools !!!!
Then i toke a freedom of expression , to my friend . But his reaction made me upset , I thought he gonna to scratch back , but he really washed me !!

And in world without borders, where is the Freedom of expression and the Personal privacy meets ? There is a clear border , should be . And this Borders widens or shrinks according to relations . It is like , “The stupidity of life will once meet the reality , when only your life begins -The real life “.

I just kept all the shits outside my bedroom , so i winded up and startes watching movie Up , the pixar creation, it really make me happy .
Yesterday it also did not work, i was in a mess !!!! Ans atlat i could indulge in a bc meeting with my personal stuffs, and went to bed at 0400 !!!
Many things were scrolled , genoerousity of attitude !
have any trouble with my attitude , who cares!! When my attitude make some pain to others , i have to take care!! like a bad joke in a improper time .
is this ‘ stupidity of life ??? may be
And i just trying to convince myself , that era is over “tell me your friends, i will tell you who you are” , it is time of public profiles , i will tell you how much you are influential .
but anyway i will not intrude in to any privacies ,
selfishness and social awareness , i discussed this thing with my friends . It is something like , when a place where you dont know who is staying in your next door , and things come like a manner that only you react with the problem which concern you or affect you . This one is also making some kid of ambigutiies

Diary

shafeekh — Wed, 16 Dec 2009 11:05:41 +0000

After slogging it out with my training session in ORPC Oman, just landed in UAE on monday night . Like any other sites , it was a late night flight and am too tired .
Just reached home and i cant resist myself to have a heavy dinner. After switching on the personal dump machine , i started another classic french movie named :the dreamlife of angels ” . It is not the usual stuffs . theme is different, as well as the overall script is good (beleive in the subtitle !!!)..
i toke a break on Tuesday and again back in office on Wednesday . Checked planning schedule and find out that next week am bc with Offers !!! today waited for quiries but . So idle fr sometime. And checked some mutual fund facts , and checked my last balance and am in a profit state of 7 INR (0.15 $) .
i have to check with toastmasters as i have to improve my presentation skills and planning to do that Network training.
Now let me have a check to reach london on next Olympics , just in my dream city for a special occasion, it will be fantastic .I have to check the possibilities . Today i have a thought about the international human being , just came out from middleeast and move to some other European destination and live a beautiful small life . It is not only in favour of money but also have a vision about my dreams . As in the movie ‘REVOLUTIONARY ROADS’ , : ” there is we have a full of life , not miserable like this “
am just recalling that ad ” LIFE IS CALLING ,WHERE ARE YOU ”

Diary

shafeekh — Mon, 23 Nov 2009 19:17:23 +0000

Llust make me yellow !!!! alot of promises i broken , alot of moments that i cannot resist myself . Am not changing !!!
The medication of the mind through some kind of exercise , i could not find a revolution . obviosly there will be an effect , but the result will be late and i dont have that much patience to wait fr my experiments as i have a ” short stupid bautiful dramatic life ” .
The uncertainities and ambiguties never resolve . It will be with us with a different form or charactor. Yesterday went AUH , meet my dad after a long time .Every weekends i made some kind of execuses and 3 years are over and i could not cherish his dream . Sometime i feel i can do much better . But the era is over . Now he is in the flight , he retired from this innings and next is a peaceful rest life . For that i have to be here and play rest of this game.

Relations always make particular kind of responsibility and this responsibility lead to an attitude . Attitude of the life is decieding by the relations . Some time i feel lonliness but sometime i really enjoying the freedom of the lonliness . That is what am confused about this life

Last week i watched american beauty , in 1999 it won many Oscar . The direction is good , the way of the storytelling is differnt . I really enjoyed the movie . Nothing more than that movie on last week . Came back from the KSA after SAT and need to again on the next week for the start up. Watched videos about the berlin war , decieded to go ahead with IELTS training videos or the functional safety stuffs or the project management lessons . I have idea about this three . But ultimate result was ended in youtube videos and some movies !!!!!

Sharjah-Dubai

shafeekh — Wed, 28 Oct 2009 07:43:18 +0000

Started from the home at 8:30 and reached the office at 11 !!! the traffic flow between Dubai -Sharjah getting worse . I Cannot find any big change on the traffic between the two cities , even after launching of the Metro . As the metro is only for Dubai , will not help the Sharjah Commuters. A lot of time we are wasting in the roads , millions of time hours , heavey carbon emission , frustrated minds and many more …
Mostly expats residing the city ,as the going for a better accommodation with lesser rent ,so they have to suffer this troubles …
The law of new economy teaches that cheaper means Bad . It is leading the business .
Myself in the hectic traffic i will think about the alternatives
1. Tube train/Metroin the Etihad road -
2. Dubai Metro connecting Sharjah -(at least until Sharjah -City center)-
3. The parallel roads /bridge roads – vertical parallel road

And am not a civil engineer , but as a instrumentation engineer i can give some reccomendation to save something .

But everyone can see the dreams , that will come true later .

But Dubai Metro is doing a fantastic job as the statistics show a uprise in the commutes . 1 million commuters in less than one month . That is the real saving of the environment and the fight against climate change !!!

But fighting against climate change starting from your car , as the ads all over the world ..reduce the carbon emission

Recently i had read somewhere that some flight insist their passengers to go to the toilet before boarding the flight to reduce the carbon emission .. I think news is from Japan .